Jul 07 2009
The Luminous Heart : When what you are supposed to do is obvious
The world is chock full of unhappy people who have a lot of money. It is very possible to be rich and unhappy, and it all boils down to knowing what you are supposed to be doing with your life versus what it is that you are doing for your bank account. Though there is nary a soul who will not equate being rich with being happy, there is a fine line between being who you are and being who you think you are just because the money is good.
How many times have you looked at a picture of someone who is rich and famous and have not seen them smiling? Britney Spears is one of them, and so is Lindsay Lohan. Michael Jackson was one of them. All three of these very rich, very famous people have one thing in common - they are, and in Michael’s case, were, miserable in their personal lives.
When we are willing to do whatever we can in order to have a lot of money, a lot of fame, and we do these things which o not resonate with our souls, we find ourselves rich in the wallet but not in the soul. It is fine to desire being wealthy, as wealth from our own doings does one thing for us - proves that for a moment, we were doing those things that resonated with our souls, no matter how fleeting they were and how superfluous. Yet now, after we have been shown the difference between achieving our very soul’s desires versus getting what we want and getting our way, we find ourselves empty and wanting more of the thing that we think is success when in fact all it is is nothing more than proof that wanting our desires enough truly pays off materially.
And you thought money bought happiness
I will not lie - I like being rich. I was rich, and now I am the furthest thing from that image of fur coats, customized cars, social clubs with other golf course wives, parties on someone’s lake house deck. I was the epitome of “living large.” For a really long time I thought that all of this law of attraction stuff was the greatest thing in the world and for a little while it worked but what I forgot - what we ALL forget - is that there is a lot more going on when we are manifesting the desires of our souls, and though sometimes we desire something bad enough and we get it, often times we are left with more stuff but less fulfillment. This is because though at the time when we wished our wishes with childlike and wild abandon, we were not thinking from our souls, even as the thing we desired was there and was the momentary longing of it.
Everything has a price
Yes, people are under the impression that Love is free, that dreaming is free, that lots of things are free, but I beg to differ. Everything comes with a price, and sometimes that price is very steep. We have a lot in the pocket but not a lot in the heart and the soul and that is where the crux of it all lies- within the soul. When we desire riches what we are looking for in reality is security. When we long for love what we want is friendship to quell the emptiness inside.
Everything we want in life has some sort of pricetag on it. We must give up shards of our Selves that we might not be willing to give up and that serve only our lower, physical energies and not our energies which resonate with our soul’s longings. It might seem strange and confusing, but it isn’t. In fact, it is the furthest thing from strange.
When everything seems to crash down onto us is when the lesson is loud, clear and obvious - you are not doing what you are supposed to be doing
I love to write. This is not news, and it is not something that has not or did not dawn on me a long time ago. I Love to write SO much in fact that when it came down to what I wanted to do more of - write books, blogs and long-winded emails, versus continuing to teach dance, the answer was easy and clear and not one that I had to think much about.
I am a writer, and though I am possessed with an artist’s soul, the pictures which I paint are done in typewritten media and not with paint. The things that I cultivate in the middle of my soul are those things which make a person think about how they feel about what I wrote and allows them to conjure their own image in their own minds about what I just wrote. Instead of creating beautiful images with dance, I chose instead to do what resonates with the longings of my soul.
I am a writer and there is nothing that I can say or do to change that, and it is not my fate but my future. I was placed on this earth to do one thing well, one thing above others with whom I share DNA and relatives with, one thing that I am noted for. I was born to write and to bring to the world the messages of Love, Hope, Self Respect, Honor and Joy, even if it is that I bring these things while the reader hears the constant pounding of the mediocrity one feels when they KNOW they are not doing what it is that they are supposed to be doing.
You know what it is that you should be doing, so why are you not doing it?
I know - everyone needs to work so that they can eat, and at the moment I am stuck in the middle of this chase of finding work doing activities that I do not care to do but have to. However, I know what it is that I am supposed to be doing and what it is that I do better than everyone else I know. It takes a lot of work to be a great writer, and I have worked hard to hone my craft and have done so since I was a child. This is the thing that I recall doing the most of when I was a kid, and if I were supposed to be dancing in front of large audiences, I would find my joy in that but I know for sure that this is where I am supposed to be - planted squarely in front of my keyboard and sitting squarely inside your head, telling you that yes, you need your day job, but you also need to let your soul fly by doing that one thing that you are really the very best at.
For me, this is the written word, and there is no person on the planet who can tell me otherwise.
What, dear friend, is that one thing? Only you know. It is that thing that you do that makes you feel lighter than air, that should make you feel like you are the one at the front of the line and that if someone had to choose, the only right choice would be you.
Think about what it is that you should be doing and do it - your fans are waiting!
I LOVE YOU ALL~
MAPU
Roxanne Cottell is a freelance writer with her latest book , “Your Rock Star Moments,” due outin time for Christmas, 2009. Check her out on the web at www.auntymapuana.webs.com. For inquiries about this posting, please send her an email at roxannecottell@yahoo.com…namaste !
